So Hard to say Goodbye

So our little Chloe has been under the weather for over a year now. She has had back problems, along with a lot of other things. She suddenly went blind over the summer, which really alarmed us. We have taken her in for second opinions, but without doing a several thousand dollar test, no one was able to determine the problem. We were hoping that it was just a fluke thing. This last week, she has been really out of it, and pretty uncomfortable. We took her in again, and tried antibiotics. Things were just getting worse. Late tonight, I told Kyle I thought it was time for me to stop being selfish, and get things taken care of. It is incredibly hard to have to make that kind of a call, especially where she couldn't communicate the problem. I will always feel horrible for having to do this, but I just couldn't stand to see her suffer any longer. It is like losing a family member. The saddest part is that she was only seven and a half years old. She has brought so much joy to us, and we have loved every minute that we have had with her. I hope that we gave her a happy life, she did get pushed to the back burner a little when the kids were born, but we still tried to include her as much as possible. She was the sweetest dog, and we will always remember her. I think the kids are a little too young to understand, so I don't know what I will tell them in the morning. I just wanted to make note of this, since this is our only family journal for now, and she has been a large part of it. I probably will not have the courage to look at this for a few days(possibly never). We love you Chloe, and will miss you immensely!!